Suspending belief – a profound experience of reiki and crystal healing

I am not a scientist however I do have a mostly logical mind so have simultaneously dabbled and been cynical about ‘alternative medicine’. A couple weeks ago I had a remote distance reiki and crystal healing, It was a new experience. And it was really powerful and so I thought it was worth sharing the experience. 

Some background

I ran my first London marathon in 2004. Having never run more than 5k before it felt like an impossible challenge. An important challenge to beat the (then) painful reality of reaching 30 years old. I ran London again in 2006. Pleased with my achievements basically hung up my long-distance trainers for almost a decade.

In 2015 a group of us decided to do the Brighton Marathon. By then in my 40s, the training trimmed me up a bit, I enjoyed running and I have kept it up. The same year my brother Andrew died suddenly from bi-ventricular cardiomyopathy.

Through 2016 and 17 I continued to train without any issues. In 2016 I did both Brighton and London within two weeks of each other, and then back to Brighton again in 2017.

Then in March 2018 – at the Surrey Mercer Half Marathon – I really struggled to get my breath at about mile 7. I battled my way to the end. It literally felt like a battle. 6 miles can feel like a really long way sometimes. I hated every single long minute.

I get pretty bad hay-fever so I put it down to that or to starting off to quickly and running out of steam.

Over the next six months I continued to struggle with breathing and increasingly talked to friends and fellow runners about it. Reluctantly I began to realise I was experiencing anxiety and panic. I put it down to worrying about my heart because of Andrew. I had already had my heart checked so my logical mind just hoped and believed that by simply persisting with the running it would go away. It didn’t.  

Fast forward a year. Another half marathon a month ago. Feeling on fine form until mile 6 and I was really enjoying the run. Then ‘it’ hit me. I struggled to breathe and felt rotten until mile 12.

I was FURIOUS. I have been training hard and have never been fitter. I should be at the top of my game. Instead on about my 100^th half marathon I struggled more than ever to make it around the course. On that day I started to hate the very thing that has been so important for my well-being.

That afternoon we met friends for lunch and I was talking to one of my besties who recommended a healing. So I did and this is what they told me;

Straight away I see your mum by your brother’s hospital bed and she’s crying. I hear you say that you’re terrified of upsetting her.

I then see you as a little boy/toddler and you’re in a supermarket. I can see that you’ve strayed away from your mum because I can see your mum in another aisle panicked and crying.

I can feel my heart start to race. I am guided to do some heart healing chanting and I ask what’s needed to heal this? 

I see a gift box and in it is a red beating heart. I see a heart monitor and all the vitals have ticks against them. I see you hand the box to your mum in the hospital......

I hear the song “a good heart is hard to find” https://youtu.be/0nxsbNXhd5w 

I then see the scene in the supermarket/shop again when you are a toddler and you are in your mum’s arms. I can hear your mum say “don’t you run off again, you must always stay by my side where you can see me” and she gives you a hug. 

I then see you now as you are running, with a running shirt on 

Guided mantra for you to repeat; 

“ my heart is strong, my heart is here to stay, my heart will be with me all the way” 

Repeat repeat repeat 

When you have a shower, intentionally let the water wash away all energies that are causing anxiety and stress.....imagine them being washed away and going down the plug hole......golden light energy coming from the top of the shower, so you are washing away negative energy and putting in golden energy with all positive affirmations for what you want......and how you want to feel...fit, vital and strong of heart.....

Repeat daily 

The more you do it, the more it becomes a habit you will continuously be “washing” your energy field of negative (anxious) energies and filling it with light and positive energies......

Definitely it’s all linked to your mum....and having a fear of letting her down. It all stems from early childhood and getting lost (could have even been for a second) but it is that fear that is the trigger’. 

Having received this, I then asked my mum about it. She confirmed that I used to run off and hide at the supermarket. She could not remember a specific time because it happened so often. But she knows she did panic. And she definitely told me off.

Andrew’s death has had a profound effect on my sense of mortality and my understanding of my place in the world. Whilst I have lots of hopes and dreams, the one wish above all others it is to outlive both my parents. I never want them to experience the pain and grief I witnessed them experience when Andrew died.

So of course the healing makes sense and now I know what is going on I can – and am - actively work on it.  

Since the healing I have followed the advice and taken over 3 minutes off my 10k personal best. Next weekend I do the Mercer Surrey Half Marathon again. I fully intend to enjoy it a damn sight more than last year. 

As an aside, a half marathon, should not be called a half marathon.  If you haven't ever thought about it, put it on an odometer next time you drive. It’s a long way. 13.1 miles does not deserve to be called a half of anything! It is a whole in its own right. 

If you have something you need to get to the root of and want a healing I 100% recommend Nicky Trimboy. You can find out more at https://www.divinelovehealing.co.uk or call 07990 567572